It's odd, I woke up in a good mood. It changed a bit when I actually got to school, though. It's kinda weird, but for as long as I can remember, I've been the 'back-up'. I've been someone that you could sit with for company 'cos your best friend's ill ... No-one's ever liked me as much as I liked them. I only realised a few years ago, and I thought I got over it and I wasn't gonna be the back-up girl that you bully for a laugh 'cos they're your friend, right?
I realised I was still the backup in PE. We had to pair up for javelin (giving a load of hormone-driven teenage girls sharp things to throw at each other? Smart.) I was left alone. My life in a nut shell. I went with Laura and Sophie M, but I ended up as Laura's partner 'cos Sophie had to do something. It still hurt a bit.
I got into one of my 'numb' moods. This means I go all silent and expressionless. I look at nothing in particular, and be totally indifferent. Don't ask my why.
I also get mega paranoid and self-conscious. So if someone laughs, they're immediately laughing at my. Shallow, right? That's me. My friends can usually cheer me up though. It worked a little, but ... still.
It's was Helen's (Helz) birthday on Sunday, and I'm broke, so I got her a tub of Oreos and a handmade necklace. It didn't fit, but still. It was actually rubbish though, it had, like, 11 beads on it.
Last two lessons were a sex education workshop. Those two words either make you laugh or blush, or both, and you end up looking like a spaz, rather like moi. I had cheered up by then, 'cos my friends are impossible to be sad around. Laura nearly had a fight with another older girl. They make me laff. But that workshop was both v. embarassing and j/ks (man). The roleplays or whatever were well funny, the dude was a v. good actor. But the plastic models and the baby ... y'know what I mean, right?
Erika's phone went off near the end. What kind of moron calls someone when they know they're at school? It's a pain, 'cos if I don't put my phone on silent, no doubt I will get a text and land in a load of trouble or I'll forget to turn it off silent and get rubbish from my dad .... Meh.
Sorry, this blog entry's been all about me. I'm sorry for being a selfish spaz, I'd blame the hormones but I think this is just plain insanity. Sorry all you ppl who have to put up with me. I'll get you all cookies.
Oh yeah! If anyone knows a website where I can watch the 'A Little Princess' 1995 movie, pls tell me! Thanks. Ja ne!